I look into your heart and you'll find love,

Today was alright.
Fucking biology teacher won't give me a new seat. Says the situation is "acute" Bull fucking shit.

Natalie is leaving school Wednesday or Thursday:( and moving Saturday. Her parents have no fucking idea what their doing. Which bothers me.

Today in Biology, I was looking over at Samantha and then I realize that the kid next to her is staring me down. So I asked what? And he made his eyes really big and started laughing and was like, your staring at me with huge eyes. I have little eyes, hence being half asian. He's alright. Since the annoying girl I don't like sits next to me now is all like HE'S SO CUTE. Uhm, I thought you were inlove with Spiro? Whatever.

Half the school didn't have heat today, and it was freeezing and really windy outside.

Theres not much to talk about since this morning I wrote about my weekend.
I like my shirt, and I wore my Sperry's again:) And tomorrow I'm wearing this cool looking shirt.
So that's nice.

I'm going now. I have art soon too.
Goodbyee.

I know St.Peter will call my name,

Alright. So this morning, I woke up at 4:45 instead of 5:45 thinking it was 5:45.
Which completely sucks ass.

Let's see what I did over the weekend...

Oh right. Friday after school, Kelsey walked home with me, that was fun. She came over until late. We decided to go on a "picnic" That was alright..
On Saturday, it rained all day so Alyssa and I went to the mall. That was fun. I got pretty shirts:)

On Sunday, I hung out with Jill. Theres nothing good to do when the weather is being bipolar. Literally. It would be gross and rainy then windy then the sun was shining and it would be really hot. Then all of a sudden it started pouring when I was walking home. I get home, the sun comes out. Then it's thundering and pouring. Sun comes out 20 minutes later. Then it was just windy for the rest of the night.

I guess right now I could draw in my sketchbook, but I don't know where my charcoal is and I don't want to get my hands messsy.

Oh yeah, so I've decided to get a haircut since I need a good change. Everyone has long hair, and they never do anything good with it. So I think that if I get it cut by a stylist and got all the right stuff for it, then it should be good. Change is good, right?

So in Biology, we got new seats. I'm in the very front right now. Killl me. Yet alone that, I sit next to this fucking creeper. He has the same length hair as me, except he has no part so it's just from the back up his head to the front in his face. He spends the whole class just picking his face and moving his hair. Oh and brags about how he's smart and doesn't need to be in this class. If he doesn't need to be in the class, THEN FUCKING LEAVE. So this morning I'm going to demand a seat change. Actually, I'm going to e-mail my teacher now and ask for a seat change. I was going to just go upstairs.
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Okay, I just e-mail my teacher:) I'm a complete suck up.

Any who, I'm doing nothing fun this week. Back of the roof is finished. I have art afterschool today. I need plans for the weekend because if I don't make them now, then I won't have any. Siiike, I need to make plans for the whole spring break. Ahh, I'm siked.
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Okay, I got cereal.

Alright, nothing to talk about.
I think I'll leave now.
Goodbye:)

I don't know what to name this,

My parents really want me to get a haircut.

I have somewhat short hair now, but they want it shorter.

If you've been following this blog, then you've seen pictures of me.

I want something like this picture, but not as short. And brown, of course.

I'd love you forever if you told me what you think:) Should I grow my hair out long orrr cut it?
Everyone has long hair, and I don't want people to think I'm just doing it because of them. I love being different.

Why'd you have to wait?

Hmm, alright. Today's Friday. I don't feel too good. But I have plans this weekend:)!
Today after school I'm walking home with Kelsey to my house and were hanging out.
Tomorrow I'll be with Alyssa:)
And Sunday, I'm hanging out with Justin.
Should be fuuun.
Last weekend was a shit weekend. I did nothing fun at all.
Since that's when the school dance was and I'm really not into dances at all.

Aw, I'm so proud of myself:)
I feel like I've been dressing "different", which is good.
Exampppple, I wore sweatpants one day, a hoodie the other, and my zebra hoodie another. Yay me. But today I'm dressing how I normalllllly do;Crazy color flower short and a white quarter sleep cardigan that's like half the length of my shirt.
Go me.

I really want it to get warm. It'd be nice to go outside without freezing my ass off or the coldness making my hair freeze. Pleaseeee mother nature?!

Alright, I gotta go put jeans on. Yes, I'm wearing pants, but not jeans. Byebye:)

Take the heart right outta' me,

Bangbangbang.
That's all I hear. Stupid roof people.
Anyways, Today was goood. I wore my Sperry's:) I was proud of myself.
Let's seee,
Math is really easy now.
Art is my favorite<3
English is alright.
Biology is getting better.

I don't talk/look at _____ anymore at all, so that's good:) I like someone ellllse, but I can't tell you yet. I really am thinking about taking this blog URL off my myspace. Apparently people read this and I don't know it that are my friends in real life, then talk about the stories on here but I haven't personally told them before. So that's a bit creepy.

I'm hanging out with Justin tomorrow. I was supposed to today, but he had to do something else. He's a senior, and he's soo tinnyy:) But he's cute, so that's cool.

I got a new sketchbook and this giant ass pack of colored pencils. It's pretty much every damn color of the greatest rainbow in the fucking world. So that's nice too.

I broke my computer, and I just got it fixed. It took foreveeer to fix.

This girl keeps IMing me on Facebook. She doesn't really get the hints that I don't like her and think she's the most annoying girl ever. Then yesturday I decided it was okay to answer since I actually had something to say. Bad idea.

Hmm, well I don't mind people copying me in class, but the girl next to me in Biology constantly copies. That's why I love when we get tests and one test is Booklet A and the other is Booklet B, so she's screwed. And when she copies, she can't just look over my shoulder. She has to take the paper all the way to her desk, while I'm trying to copy down all the work so I don't have homework or whatever.

I really complain a lot on here. Let's find some good news.
I don't dread school as much anymore.
But I really wish my friends were all friends with each other.
Most of my friends are freshmen, but theres other ones that are sophmores, juniors, and sophmores.
Almost none of my friends are friends with each other so I can't really hang out with a bunch of people at once.

Tomorrow is going to be all rainy and cold. My plans are to walk around outside after school. Greeat. I'll just wear my zebra jacket and be all cool:)

I love Burts Bees chapstick.
I forgot it at home yesturday when I went to school):

I loooove a lot of things:)
-My iPod-My cellphone-Texting-Sleeping-Green tea-Friends-Zebras!-Owls!-Dinosaurs!-Painting-Drawing-Crayons-Snow-Weekends-Summer-Black nail polish-Skinny jeans-Flowery shirts-Eyeliner-Converse-Rings-Buddhism-Reading-And I really don't feel like listing more.

I hate few things;
-Rude people-Anime-Annoying people-Super perverted guys-Being sweaty-FEET-TOES

Yeah, that was random.

I could write forever about useless stufff, but I'll save you and leave:)
Gooodbye.

I'm not in love, this is not my heart,

Mmm, today feels like it's going to be a good day.
I'm wearing a black aeropostale sweatshirt, I hate Aeropostale. Got it for Christmas, so I have to wear it atleast once every two months. Mmm plaid Sperry's:) Oh and skinnnny jeans.
Just though I'd let you know.
Ahhhh I'm going to a Coldplay concert on the 21st with my brother and his girlfriend for my birthdayyy:)!

Baby close your eyes,

I have a horrible headache. I have one every morning. But this one won't go away.
I have t minus four minutes to make it to the bus stop. I'm wearing sweatpants to school for the first time ever. Yeah bitch, suck it.
-Have a nice day.

Let's hear it for America's sweethearts,

Hmm, today was alright.
I think I'm going to be brave and wear sweatpants for the first time tomorrow. This is a big thing for me.

I really hate it when people talk shit about your friends, but the person doesn't know your friends with that person. Example, today this girl was talking about how much of a fatass my friend is. My friend is actually reallyy skinny and went to a boot camp all summer and is really strong. So suck that.
Hm, nothing else really bothers me right now.

We had another subsitute in math:)!

Oh, and that girl keeps saying hi to me like I'm her best friend. Well, newsflash;you annoying the shit out of me.

Alright, I'll leave you alone. I have this video that I'm considering to upload but my voice is verrry high in it and you wouldn't understand it.

"I feel like frilicking in a meadow"

Computer is still broken. Brother took his computer back since he left for college today. Now I'm on my Dad's laptop. It's a really espensive one that has a touch screen and the group sreen moves around to make it into an electronic notebook. Cool, I guess but it's annoying sometimes.
Today I hung out with Matthew and now I'm watching Spectacular from my bed. Yeah, it's like a wannabe High School Musical but whatever.
I'll be right back, chinese food is here.
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Alright, I'm back.
Mmm so I deleted that annoying girl off myspace since she pretty much stalks me. Then she messaged me on why I deleted her so I was like "My myspace got all fucked up from when I broke my computer." Then blocked her. Yeah, immatureish, I know. But everytime I talk to her it's about Spiro and if I'm mad at her. Yeah I'm mad about you being annoying.

I hate Mondays. Theres only one good thing about them but I'm not telling you:)

The weather is really nice out right now. I hope it's like this all week.

Were getting construction on the whole outside of the house this week and I really hate the creepy workers. So heres my plans,
Monday-Art class.
Tuesday-Babysitting.
Wednesday-Hanging out with Justin.
Thursday-Babysitting.
Friday-I'll probaly walk home with Natalie or something, I'm not sure yet.

Trying to abvoid being in my house while sketchballs are on my roof.

Well, I think I'm going to run on the tredmill soonish after I digessst.

Goodbye.

What I'm about to say is Revalation, and I've got it on DVD!

I broke my computer in my room so I'm surviving off of my brother's laptop. Which is actually really cool.

The school dance is going on right now. I have dances. And the Mardi Gras dance pretty much consists of sluts and guys. It's stupid and I'm really not into dances at all.

Natalie came over today. She moved from her house to her neighbor's basement since they sold her house. Then she's moving two days before my birthday. I'm wondering if I should have a party for her leaving. But we don't have that many friends in common. So I probaly won't.

Spiro really annoys me now. I never liked him to start, I just liked the way he looks. He's going around and telling people how I like him and obssessed with him. I told like three people that I liked his hair, and this is how it turns out? Really? Common' now. Oh, and other girl that smells that likes him is really getting on my nerves. She's like obssessed with him and all like OH MY GOD SPIRO! when she smelllls like pure shit. Sorry, that was mean but I need to tell someone or the computer atleast. Oh and I heard Spiro's voice the other day and it's really high and nerdy. Whatever, both of them annoy me and I really don't need to deal with them.

I don't care if they read this since this URL is on my myspace. It would make things a bit easier anyways.

P.S. I can't date someone with longer hair than me and more piercings than me.

That's just queer.

Kelsey is coming over later:)

Then, I have nothing to do tomorrow. Alyssa cancelled last minute, again.

So today with Natalie, we walked and met up. Then my house, then the playground. My house to watch Religulous at the end. It was goood. I didn't finish it though.

Oh, the pictures on this blog are from the webcam on my brother's laptop.

She used to be the sweetest girl,

I forgot to mention yesturday that in the morning, I didn't even know it was St. Patrick's Day. And btw, St.Patrick's Day is a stupid holidy.
Well, schoool time.

All I needed was you,

Today was a much, much better day:)
Let's see, I just finished typing up my essay for english and my biology BCR's. Math was wonderfulll! I've never been up to the board to write down problems, and today I went up 3 times:D And I helped out some people with the problems they didn't get. Even the teacher was proud of me. Ah shit, I forgot we have math homework.
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Okay, I'm back. I was doing my math homework. It was easy:)
Mmm, art was alright. English, we just read. Played with microscopes in Biology.
I went from a C to B in Math and B- to A- in Biology:)

Mmm, I'm going now, bye.

This kind of stuff just doesn't exist,

Hmm, today was alright.

I was in a pretty horrible mood in the afternoon though. And this morning someone was pissing me off. Whatever, it's about time I found a new spot to stand in the mornings anyways. But I don't know with who yet...

Lately I've been feeling pretty alone? I don't know why. I'm showered with friends anyways. No, I am not trying to brag. But I always feel like no one is there that is just like me. Well, I don't want a friend JUST like me, but someone who won't get sick of me. Have you ever wondered "Hm, if I was someone else, would I be my friend?" I think I'm rather annoying to people, but yet people still talk to me and stuff, so whatever.

Well, I'm watching the rest of Secret Life, so I'll write more later...maybe.

Help me get down, I can't make it,

The Ting tingss! I just like the picture.

I am extremely bored.

Why are my Sundays always so dreadful?
I always think that I have to be done all my plans by 4 because I have school the next day. Isn't that stupid? I think so.

Say what you wanted to tell,

Today was okay. Fun actually.
Natalie and I rode our bikes to old main street. Which is about a 30 minute walk, and on bikes it just depends how fast you go. So when we get to the end, I yell out "SHIT, I FORGOT THE BIKE LOCK!" So we rode back for like a minute and hid our bikes in the woods. Then when we were walking back to where we just were, Natalie sees the rock that was dynamited to make the pathway(used to be a trolly line). When she's coming back down, she trips on a rock, runs into the little boardwalk thing I was standing on, climps up and slides about five feet which is where I was standing. God, it was so funny, I just wanted to piss myself right there. But I decided not to. Save myself some embarassment.
Then Matthew came over later. I went out to dinner with his family. I love his family so much. They make me realize how boring and lame my family is. When actually, my family is pretty hilarious.
Ugh, I'm having a super boring night. I think I'll go sleep the rest of it away. I don't have any plans for tomorrow. Fuck my boring life.

We are closer,

My heart is killing me and I have a horrible headache. It kills to look at the light and it's really hard to take a deep breath. Isn't that lovely?

Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret,

My heart hurts really bad. Like literally hurts. And I'm pretty sure that's not good.

Last night I almost like killed my parents. They piss me off, a lot. If my dad would have just helped me with my math project, there wouldn't have been a problem.

So in art today, the weird ass kid comes up to our table and is just poking our lamp? Then he said some smart ass remarks and he almost got a nice big punch in the face from Brittany. Then the kid next to me was throwing a bunch of shit at him and of course, the weird kid told on my whole table. So now Mrs.S is trying to find out who did it so they can get a detention.

Mmmm, I'm really bored. This homework isn't helping.
I'm really excited for this weekend:)

Okay, I'll write more later since my heart is killing me.

I promise my eyes are open in this picture.

Mmm, so today I hung out with Jenna. It was fun.

I'm debating whether or not I should wear shorts tomorrow?

I think I'll get on later and write more. I'm bored.

Theres a reason for the world;You and I,

The weather was amazing today:)

So as you know, Alyssa spent the night last night. We were just walking around outside for a bit. When we were walking home from 7-11(Which is where everyone goes pretty much and hang out around there since it's in the middle of everything) we passed the local bar thing and out comes one of the gym teachers at my school. Drunk, of course. It was hilarious. He threw out his pencil infront of us and goes "DID YOU DTOP THAT?!", laughing while saying it. And I was like "No? HEEEYYYY you teach at my schooll!" Then he was asking about the school and how we like it. He asked for our names and gym teachers names only a bajillion times. Mmm, drunk teachers are quite funny. Then went to the playground and met up with Brian. He's a senior. Then today at like 11? We went to old main street. I love going there:) It's like a 30 minute walk on a paved path through the woods. That was lots of fun. On our way home, we sat on this stone wall that is like where the water goes under to get to the other side of the path and I had a glass green tea bottle. I ripped off the wrapper so it was just a glass bottle. I was banging it and stuff on the stones and next thing I know, it busts open and the glass and green tea just fly out in the air into the water. It was pretty awesome:) Thennn we got home at like 6? I hung out with Matthew for a little. Then some laundry and homework. I wore shorts for the first time this year:)

The only one whose ever known who I am,

^^^^That's a fatass squirrel that sneaked onto my back porch. Bitch.

It's Friday!

SPIROOOO might be in schoool!

I'm eating an appple!

Alyssa is walking home with me after schoool!

She's spending the nightt!

It's going to be 60 degreees!

Ahh, today bettter be damn great.

She is everything I need,

Mmm, today was alright.
-SPIRO WASN'T THERE. God, I love his hair so fucking much.
-Courtney's friend whose a senior wanted my number, so I'm texting him now.
-Luke wasn't in school either.
-Gabby has the flu, ahh thank god. I cannot fucking stand sitting next to her and hear her flirting with Luke and his "sexy eyes" And yes, she does have a fiance. Yeah it's hilarious. Because he is the ugliest thing on this planet too.
-No homework:) Well, becuase I already did it.
-I'M HOME ALONE! I probaly shouldn't be telling the whole world that, but oh well:)
-I was walking down the hall before the bell rang for school to end and all the classes were like smushed up against the door and were yelling "WHOOOOOAAAA" and holding up their fingers like a phone. That made me feel special:) I am NOT bragging. I just need something to talk about.
-Sean's fishes died today! In biology, Mrs.G has this fishtank with a bunch of fish. Sean loves them with all his heart. And today there were two dead ones floating around. Reallll cute. So he was like crying in the chair infront of the fish tank so I tried to pick him up. He's realllly tall and I'm realllllly short. So that didn't work out and I ended up dropping him. Opps:)
-Hmm, oh yeah. I had curly hair today! That made me all happy. Hahah, I'm queeer.

I can't wait for the 20th:)
HOLY SHIT, TOMORROW'S FRIDAY.
Ahhh, this is great.
I'm go now:)

The song plays on while the moon is high,

Mmm, so this "bed time" thing is going okay. I woke up not tired, so that's always nice.

Ahh, I'm so fucking jealous of his hair. And he has a lip ring. Which I would consider getting one but I have braces and those things ruin your teeth. Anddd I'd find that a pain in the ass. We have some pretty nice stares at each other. It's like those kind of stares that when hes just looking at me and I just happen to look over at him and we just hold that stare then I look away. It's kinda funny. We were in our lab groups and me and him were both up at the table to get some chicken liver, mmm. JUST KIDDING, IT'S GROSS. And were just waiting in line in the middle of the room just standing there staring at each other. Then I realized how funny we must look so I got my stuff and went back to my lab station. I wish he would just speak up and talk to me. I have this obssession for weird boys.

COURTNEY! I hung out with her after school and we went back to the middle school:) Ahh, we saw T.Love! That was fun. On the 20th were going to my cabin togetherr! I'm so excited. I would write oh so much more on here but I don't know if my friends read this. Well, I know some do but theres some things that only a few people can know. Know what I mean?
Mmm, Someone wanna show me how to make this private so only people who follow my blog can read my blogs? I'd love you foreverr:)

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I was reading a magazine.
I'm back:)
And I only have an hour before bed:(
Byebyee.

She wanted love, I tasted blood,

I woke up late this morning, even with the two hour delay.My mom came home from work to take me to school.No idea what was happening in math class.Found out five minutes before school ended that all stage crew and cast from the play have to stay after to strip the set.Then walked home from that at like 3 with Matthew.Bytheway, It's so fxcking cold outside, it's crazy.My hands are red/pink along with my face, legs, feet, and arms.Also, my mom said we were having a "talk" after school about my attitude? and waking up lateness. And that also everynight I have to go to bed at 10.WHATTHEFXCK.

Yeah, that's the highlight of my day.

It's like 5:20 and I just ate a snack since I didn't get home until too long ago and my Dad's already making dinner so I'll probaly feel sick later. I already did my homework so I'll have my good five hours to -Eat dinner-Take a shower and then soak up as much computer as posssible. Maybe I'll make myself not read until 10. Ajgshgdjhbdjkghs.

On the bright side, we got a new kid today in Biology. He has longer hair than me and it's super straight and it's not gross or anything. That lowered my self esteem even more. He has a lip ring too on the side, that's kinda cool I guess. Oh, and he has a really cool name, Spiro. Kami said he was from Greece so pretty much no one knows where he's from. I felt bad for him. We watched some gayass video about the digestion system and since my class is retarded and makes a huge deal about everything we have "Pacers" to tell the clicker person to go to the next part, "Direction teller" to read the directions that consist of "Zoom in", "Eat", and "Continue" and of course Calvin did that with the annoying voice and then the "Clicker" who sits at the laptop, and the "Reader" which was Matthew and did it all slow and retarded. Yeah, the video was make for little kids and we had to take notes on it. Poor, poor kid.
Almost dinner time, I'maaaa go now.

You've got a piece of mind,

Target.

Dressses.

Around midnight walking around.

Yes I know this is an ugly ass dress. That's why I tried it on.

Woo, fuzzy rugs.

I don't feel like writing much.

Heres some new stuff,

-Snow day! And theres actually snow.

-I spent my Saturday night cleaning all under my desk in all the bins and drawers.

-I shoveled. Borrriiinnnggggg.

-Matthew just left.

I NEED SOMETHING TO DO.